I am a chartered civil engineer

Today I received confirmation that I am a chartered civil engineer......

civil exam result tomorrow

I'm a tad nervous....I keep having thoughts about passing but its highly unlikely it will happen if I keep thinking like this!

CPR email

Had an email today warning me that I would be receiving my CPR results on Friday....I still havent told h that my results will be issued on Friday. Enjoying the 'secret' but also like the idea that I can't talk about it!

designer stubble

I trimmed my stubble for the first time yesterday.....part of hrs image change?

favourite thing ever

Chinese food

You've been framed

Family on the sofa

My favourite sat night

very relaxing bath

Feeling good about life at the moment. I hope I've passed my chartership but I have to stop 'assuming' I have.

If I fail I've decided that I'm going yields sit behind the topsoil mound facing south and decide my plan of attack.

If I pass I'm going to email Helen with my signature saying thank you and couldn't have done it without her

CPR

Found out yesterday that CPR results will be emailed out a week today...should be a tentative week waiting on pins

annual review

Very inspirational talk from j today during my annual review.

He would bet his mortgage on me becoming a pm and said that I need to set my objectives as high as Tim currently is.

Now need to prove that I can do internals as well civil and structures.

Told him I'd be starting my mba in September.

Feeling good today....my salary is not too bad and I am looking to play the long game with my future...I must not be jealous of others!

job thoughts

Monday morning shit......

Thought about job this morning but it might just be Monday morning blues.

I need to remember that at the moment I am going through the process of finding out 'what I do'.

Through school I kept my head down and focused upon my goals....I didnt pay any attention to what others did. Now h is earning a lot more than me (as are most of my friends) but I can't let it distract me!

I need to hang tough for my civils result, keep discovering what it is 'I do', save for my wedding and keep my focused on my own objectives (not getting distracted by the achievements of others)

professional behaviour

Must behave in a more professional manner at work than I did today....anyway, annual review tomorrow

end to the weekend

Just finished my takeaway.....watch the end of Tim, drive home, want over the girlfriend and sleep until work tomorrow.

Shift didn't go on the cross trainer....I'll do some press ups when I get home

full weekend

This weekend I've:

Drove to Birmingham

Went the pub

Went for breakfast

Went to the races

Went to the pub

Had a great wank

Had a breakfast cooked for me

Drove to Sheffield

Went bowling

Went to the cinema

Lusted over a mate's sexy bird

Ordered takeaway

Watched Tim Minchin

Waited for take away

Thoughts about said bird in lingerie.......

Back is less sore but my wrist is sucking killing!

new project

I was talking with c

heesy

the other day and told him I need another project...I wa

s

wrong.

The time up until my civils

exam is time for me to relax and enjoy not having something to think about. When I get my results I'll either have to resit or, I will have passed, and I'll move on to planning my m

ba

I can't do the mba before I get married....I dont have the money for it. I'm not sure how much debt I'll be in after this wed

ding.

tame day at the races

Down to Cheltenham yesterday for terraces. Didn't get a singl

e

winner! But did see some fit wom

en

thoughts

I don't dislike my job....I just want to get paid more

feel like leaving

Back to thoughts about my future......h's recent promotion and salary rise had left me feeling inadequate.

I've looked at jobs but I'm not sure that construction is where I can improve my prospects. A career change / industry change is not beyond reach but I have no idea where I would go.....

Tim had already dashed my prospects of promotion or a payrise and I don't rate my chances of being in an influential position for a very long time!

I saw Simon today. He was a pm when I met him 6 year ago and he's still a pm now!

innovation day

Not very innovative stuff really!!!! Some interesting points but nothing amazing!

innovation day

Just sat outside the national motorcycle museum waiting for inter s innovation day to start.....there's plenty of insignias in the car park so I can only assume I'm in the right place!

Kind of wish I'd have pet my suit in the car....adds further evidence that I can't leave anything for her to do.

And I navigated to this location without relying upon sat nav....in fact I actively ignored it and stuck to my map reading!! The sat navs thoughts actually confused matters!

I'm starting to get apprehensive about my chartership results......

And my jealousy of Helens sucess is leading me to think I need to leave icl to get my career moving. However, I may not be as good as I think I am. I can't threaten to leave and hope for a bigger pay rise....I have to leave but do so in a way that means I can always come back. However, if I came back I would never get promoted much higher than pm.

Still not sure what to make of this high flyers programme....I don't think anything will come of it! It's secret for a reason and it stands little chance of getting through icl's conservatism.

chances of promotion

Chatted with Tim this morning about my chances of being made into a full senior engineer....he asked what my motivation was. I told him it wasnt the title and I know the money won't be increased. I told him it was about my future prospects. He told me I shouldn't worry about future prospects as my name had been mentioned by directors as being part of a 'high flyers' initiative......

The truth is that it is about the money and the only reason I'm asking is do that my pay will be something like h's. It's jealousy that is driving my thoughts at the moment not fear of limited future development.

Tim openly stated that he would not promote me to senior engineer at this time if it was his choice. But he did say that maybe I should have w's job at Leeds e. A familiar project that poses minimal risk to the business.

I don't know what to do....I need to get more cash but I need to ensure that my future can continue to grow...

another audit

Got audited again today....only a single non compliance when we were expecting three. Will celebrate by going to work on motorbike tomorrow.

Also asked Tim to be made up to a proper senior engineer...will have to see how our chat goes tomorrow

good poo

Dropped out like a rocket!!!!

Paul seems happy with how it's gone whilst he's been on holiday.....let's see what he thinks when he learns a little more! He's not here on Wednesday for QA audit.....get mike to myself....should be fun!

Saturday morning

Yet another unproductive Saturday morning!

lists

One of the opening comments of this blog was that I am a habitual list writer....however, I am starting to get to the point whee I think I bike writing lists more than I like actually doing things. I need to stop writing lists and start doing more doing!

fitness apithany

Fitness is all about allowing your mind to wonder when you are exercising....using that activity to actually solve or mull over a separate problem. This brings there benefits...you get fit, you solve either problems and your increased fitness levels help your brain function better meaning the problems you have to mull over can be more serious ones that before you my well have felt unable to face

today

I haunt blogged for a while......things are going reasonably well at the moment. Tim s had few negative comments on his visit today. This morning's labouring made a difference. My paperwork and temp works is still behind but it is pretty low risk stuff....I've said that now the deck will fall down!

Sex has been good recently....watched a porno with her last night for the first time! 50 shades has really changed her outlook on a few things! Anal and porn for a start!

Mba is still on my mind. And civil result seems less and less favourable.....